maudlinism

So the PMR results came out today, and my youngest brother was one of those to get their results today. he did pretty well i guess, 5As, 2Bs and 1D. the D was naturally for mandarin, his weakest subject ;p since my sister was the only one to get all 8As, i'm not in any position to berate him for not getting an A for a subject that coincidentally was my first B on a major exam ever. 

the other Bs were for sejarah and BM. i'm fine with BM(in which he did wayyy better than expected), but he could have totally gotten an A for sejarah. he did so many careless mistakes and didnt bother re-checking his answers so yeah i'm pissed bout that B. 

but all in all, his results were a Huge improvement from when i went back during my summer break. at that time, he had only one A, multiple Cs and many Ds. 

naturally my mom is over the moon with his results. he can get into science stream if he wants to! funny thing is, my sister and i are way harder on him that my mom. but i do acknowledge that it's a huge improvement and quite an achievement for him, so i congratulated him and told him to go celebrate and enjoy today.

he was actually a little afraid to tell my dad his results.

tomorrow it's time to scare him about SPM. my sister thinks i'm evil, but hey, this is probably the only time he will care so much about his results and the repercussions of his actions on his academics. you can literally prepare for PMR by doing the MCQs over and over again, which was what i forced him to do, but for SPM, you have to write essays. and honestly, reading sample essays of students who had no idea what they were talking about were just plain hilarious. but if it was my brother goreng-ing and spouting crap, now that would just be plain painful. 

i will never forget about the whole "zaman gelap because there was no TNB at that time" sejarah essay everrrr. 

so he can and should celebrate today, because when we skype tmr, i'm gonna scare him a little and then help him choose which stream he'll go into... my mom says she's fine if he goes into either pure or sub-science, but my sister was all "no! he must suffer through pure science like me too!" crazy girl. lol. 

but i guess pure science would be his best bet, since the humanitites subjects are in BM. and his BM is not strong. at all. besides, neither my sister nor i can help him if he took econs, commerce, or accounts. till this day i still think the A1 i got for my accounts is a joke. 

on the topic of highschool, i was checking out instagram today when i stumbled upon this pic. 

a friend of a friend uploaded this pic, and i dont know why, but i just think its damn cool to have a touch 'n go card that's custom designed with my high school emblem no less. i totally want one!

and this made me realize that for some reason, i've always clung on to high school. those were literally the best days of my life. and for some reason, nothing measured up to all the fun and activities that i've had in high school. 

was i biased because i spent the six years prior to entering high school in a chinese primary school? college was fun too, TCSH was the newest and fanciest Taylor's campus at the time, yet it seemed anticlimatic after my KDU days. 

most people dread highschool and cant wait for it to be over. Uni life was supposed to be the best thing ever. and looking at some of my friends, i can see how that would actually apply in real life, but i guess it just hasnt been that way for me. 

i'm loving the freedom uni has afforded me, but so far it hasnt exactly topped my high school memories. one can only hope that the remaining years would get better.