Eye is for Inspiration.

So, what drives you? What keeps you motivated to open your eyes every morning, get out of bed and get on with your life?

I’ve been stuck in-between, a limbo of sorts for the past few months. Not exactly a Uni student, but not yet a proper, working adult. I’ve been working at my parent’s office in the meantime, but being the boss’ daughter = flexibility. So while there are days that I don’t have to go into the office because I’m my mom’s driver while she runs errands, there are also days where I bring work home and continue well into the evening/weekends.

But I digress.

Most of the friends that I know before I went to Moscow have been working/will begin working soon. I’ve been hanging around with them the past two months and it definitely took some time to change out of my Uni-student gears, and got me thinking.

Say you don’t have to work because you have a hypothetical trust fund that goes on forever and ever. What would you do with your life if you didn’t have to wake up at 6 or 7 every morning to go to work?

Do you just regress back into the Uni student lifestyle minus the classes and exams?

How do you find something that you can enjoy doing/pursuing for a long-ish course of time?

I get interested in little projects but they’re mostly of the hangat-hangat tahi ayam variety. I bury myself into a project for days/weeks, and when I’m done I close the chapter and just move on. My passion for things are normally just spikes. Sporadic, jumpy, spikes.

The only thing that has been pretty constant for the past few years is my writing, so I guess that’s the only thing I’ve been using to measure my “growth”. Writing was the primary outlet for all the angst I had inside me, and while I like to think I’ve slightly mellowed out, writing is still my go to outlet whenever I have these angsty flares. But over the years, I’ve dabbled into writing different things. It started out with fanfiction, but I’ve tried my hand with writing a love poem back in summer, and more recently, I’ve been working on haikus.

Most of the time I’m rather iffy with what I’ve written/created, but sometimes I find a line or two that I still love after all this time, and it inspires me somehow, in different ways. It’s like every time I visit it, I add a new layer of meaning to it, or I interpret it differently, and that’s what I want to wake up to.

Finding new layers to our everyday life, discovering the little magic in plain things.